Anger.

I have to say it's pretty fucked up to give up now while all things are out on the table. You didn't want to share in the good and the bad, just the good. There were times where you were there for the bad, but only by circumstance. Now instead of seeing whether we really have what it takes, it's time to quit. I know my part in all this, and there were dozens of times I wanted to give up but didn't. Now that I have no choice, I'm completely pissed that it's going down like this. You couldn't give it another chance? At least until we alleviate some of what we know to be a stress on the relationship? You can't pause to think about how you impacted some of the stupid decisions I made and want to try again to be a better boyfriend?  I know you're a good man, but you could have been a better boyfriend. Especially now that I'm about to go through some serious personal changes. I stood by my man... you coulda stood by me. Whatever, it's all over now and there's no going back. You don't want me anymore, and I have to make myself numb to you. Do you know how fucking hard that is?! Not being wanted, and only wanting to love that person so hard? It's fucking not fair. I guess that's how it goes with you. I bring something up that bothers me, and you turn it around so I'm the bad guy. We never talked about anything because you weren't really approachable and you didn't really listen when you were. I don't know why I'm trying to convince myself that it was anything special. I was just a roommate who got to fuck you sometimes. God damn it. I feel like such a fool. I need to turn my happy switch on and fucking forget about you.